Today was a strange day. Usually I have extra grace for people.
But today, I was having to temper my thoughts as I was in a foul mood when I got out of bed this morning around 5:00 am for the 5th time. I stumbled through my shower prayers like I do every morning and read a few Bible verses to curb my emotions, but today was different. This past weekend I experienced for the first time in years cluster headaches. Can you say, "contractions for the brain?" Along with my clusters I experienced narcoleptic attacks which I haven't had a attack in years and I've had 3 in the past 4 weekends! Usually they are stress induced whether good or bad and today I had a headache "hangover. "

Stupidly, I took some imitrex for migraines when I had clusters instead. The imitrix caused my whole body to ache! Stupid, stupid girl! But today, my headaches were gone but my nerves were so shot, I almost fired someone. I still may, but at least I won't be "hungover" when it happens.

Today was not the day to mess with me and my staff knew it. I had been at work since 7:00am and I was in no mood to play, kid, or joke around. I was so amazed at how meanness could arise in me that I called a friend of mine whose wife works for a neurologist. Thankfully I have an appointment first thing tomorrow morning. Maybe since I'm turning 40, I need to be medicated. I'm sure my children and staff wiould agree. :-) And my husband might agree except he's afraid of me.

What's interesting is that my appointment is tomorrow morning and two of my kiddos have neurologist appointments that afternoon with a different doctor. I hope and pray all goes well and I hope that I can stick with this doctor. I've had 3 neurologists in the past. ;-)